Now my problem/talent of repressing isn't perfect and sometimes certain emotions can penetrate my defense. On Sunday I was lucky enough to go to Relief Society (because it was Mother's Day the priesthood made arrangements so all the women in the ward could attend). I went in sat down and began to enjoy my little break from primary. We had the announcements then sang the opening song Hymn #293 "Each Life that Touches Ours for Good". After the song Sister Homewood (the RS president) got up to explain who would be giving the opening prayer, lesson, closing prayer etc. Right when she went to sit down she looked at me and said "and that opening song was for you". I was confused for a moment and really didn't understand what she was saying until she helped me remember the words to the hymn again. It then hit me as I started to reflect on the words of the hymn we just sung.
Each life that touches ours for good
Reflects thine own great mercy, Lord;
Thou sendest blessings from above
Thru words and deeds of those who love.
What greater gift dost thou bestow,
What greater goodness can we know
Than Christlike friends, whose gentle ways
Strengthen our faith, enrich our days.
When such a friend from us departs,
We hold forever in our hearts
A sweet and hallowed memory,
Bringing us nearer, Lord, to thee.
For worthy friends whose lives proclaim
Devotion to the Savior’s name,
Who bless our days with peace and love,
We praise thy goodness, Lord, above.
I can easily say that song being sung in my behalf has to be the best compliment I have ever received, and then I was over come with emotion. Everything I had been repressing and not thinking about hit me, I was leaving my home and my SC family, I was leaving, this is really happening. Then I cried. Like an idiot, and I couldn't help it. I try hard not to cry in church, but I couldn't help it. I will miss South Carolina. I toughened up and was able to enjoy the rest of the Mother's day message and keep the emotion at bay for a while.
That is until this afternoon. Like I mentioned earlier we are lucky enough to have movers come and pack up everything for us and move it to Michigan for us. So here it is a week from our move and we haven't done anything except organize and clean. We don't have a ton of stuff so we need to share a moving van. Because of this the moving company had given us a range of dates instead of a specific day to move us. We were told the movers would come between the 12th and 14th, and would give us 24 hours notice before they come. Today not 2 hours after Collin's parent's boarded their flight home we got a call that the movers would be coming on the 12th. I'm not sure what happened but I was suddenly overcome with the reality that our lives are going to change. We are about to take the next big step in our lives and the unknowing is freaking me out! I'm sure I will keep you updated :).